Work

      So I have to go back to work next week. We were hoping that I wouldn't need to return to work at all. Then we hoped that I would be able to wait until after the new year. I guess that is not going to happen. I have to be at work on Monday or else we will have no health insurance. After I got off the phone this morming with my boss, I just cuddled Wesley and cried silently for a while (I'm cryng right now btw). Later Brian came in and asked me if I was crying. Of course, I said "No" and immediately started crying more. Needless to say he didn't believe me.

      I just get emotional at the thought of having to leave Wes and be away. I know he will be in good hands with his grandma Susan but it's still hard. My job really is a blessing. It pays great, I can work part time, I have benifits, and they are really flexible with my schedule. It's just hard to see the many blessings when I have to be away from Wesley and when I thought this would all be worked out by now. I know Heavenly Father has a game plan for us but it's hard cuz he just hasn't shown it to us yet. I love being a mom and love Wes so much!